Hitting The Wall

Apt that this is on my mind today. I have two posts scheduled each week, one for Tuesday and one for Saturday, both to be published by 7PM NZST. But I hit a wall on Sunday that I was unable to circumnavigate until today. Not in terms of what to write, but being able to get started. So I failed to write and publish a post by the self-imposed deadline. How do we get ourselves to a position where we can conquer the walls in our lives more often than we can’t?

It happens so often that I identify something I want to do but find it difficult to start. Not only the first time but every time I’m looking to get stuck into hard work for a sustained period of time. I feel lazy and like I’ve done something wrong to hit whatever wall it is I find myself up against. My mind is never short of inspiration, new ideas find me even when I’m not looking for them. The problem I have is scheduling time to write, and sticking to it. I’m getting better at acknowledging the walls in my life. Now I need to identify the tools which I have to help me construct ways to overcome them more quickly.

When playing ultimate frisbee or football there are times I feel lethargic. My body has less energy and running requires mental as well as physical effort. But ‘the wall’ I come up against there often has an understandable reason for existing. I haven’t eaten enough food or the right food. I haven’t warmed up to get my lungs into workout mode. I haven’t had practice throws or kicked the ball around before the start of the game. These are all fixable, even during the beginning of the game if I start on the sideline. Or, I can be better prepared for the next game. My mind is also quite amazing when it comes to physical exertion in that it can convince me to run, and run, and run, on less food than should be possible, and still play well. Even if I play poorly, I turn up every week and get out on the field. (Maybe I need to start treating writing like it’s a sport?)

On Sunday and Monday inspiration struck and I wrote several blog posts ideas as notes in my phone as per usual. The difference this week compared to the last month: I didn’t open them again when I had time to turn an idea into a fully fledged blog post. It’s not that I didn’t have the time, it’s that I filled it with other things. When I publish a post, especially one which hits me solidly in the soul, I feel a sense of achievement. That I have done something I’ve been called to do.

In terms of time available to write there has been markedly less over the past week. Work has picked up so I’ve been staying later to ensure everything gets done. I’ve been spending more time practicing guitar and even writing music. (I didn’t actively choose to but while the inspiration was there I ran with it.) My father and I have started co-authoring the next short story we are going to enter into a competition. I have been reading journal articles and taking notes about the Shinto religion and Japanese mythology to be better informed as I edit my book manuscript.

I guess when I look at the past week like that there is much to be celebrated. Maybe the wall I found was a useful one to keep me up to speed in other creative areas of my life?

This week has confirmed to me I want to continue my journey away from the corporate world towards spending more time writing. At work I found myself staring blankly at the screen this morning. To recapture my focus I flipped open WordPress and read some thoughtful blog posts and left what I hope were thoughtful comments. Knowing I want to spend more time writing, and reading, and engaging with those communities, but not knowing how to get there is a difficult wall to climb—but not impossible.

What are the walls in your life right now? How might you work to overcome them or understand their benefit to you?

Thank you, to each and every one of you, for being here. Time is precious, and that you choose to spend some of yours here is humbling. Peace to you all.

Cover photo by Tim Mossholder from Pexels.

6 thoughts on “Hitting The Wall

  1. inspirechief says:

    Hamish, you are a busy man. I am amazed at what you accomplish. The only advice I can offer is to take time for yourself and reset your mind. I find that when I get away from my blog or business for a short time the inspiration starts flowing. I ride that wave until it runs out. Then I paddle back out and wait for the next one.
    Just don’t beat yourself up. That’s a negative spiral in the wrong direction.
    You are going to accomplish great things as long as you believe in yourself. Take care. Scott

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    1. Hamish says:

      Wisdom I try to remember each day – and have added to my list of positive affirmations I remind myself!

      Thank you for your kind words and encouragement. One foot on front other with conviction and we will get where we’re aiming. Prayer when we falter, prayer when we find success, prayer when we’re working hard, prayer when we’re resting. God will provide if we lean on His strength.

      I’m excited about the music and books I will get to releasing. I do have to say it will be few and far between to begin with though!

      Keep on keeping being awesome,
      Hamish.

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  2. thewheelchairteen says:

    It’s completely understandable that you faced the wall that you did. And I think that you have a real talent here in writing and reading. With the hard work that you always give everything, and the right person reading your work – I have no doubt that one day you’ll become successful enough to stop working in a corporate career and pursue your dreams.
    By the way, I haven’t forgotten about your award nomination. I just had a very full blog schedule. I’m hoping to FINALLY accept it and answer your questions this December or January. Thank you for being so patient!

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    1. Hamish says:

      Keep putting ourselves out there, right? Put in the hours, listen to constructive criticism, and brush off baseless critique. Be open to learning at all times, and keep on researching to add to our memory bank of ideas and skills.

      Thank you for the encouragement. ♥ Your words mean more than I can say.

      I hope your own writing of your comic is going well. And add with all your writing I look forward to reading your award post. Sometimes you can’t rush greatness. 😊

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  3. E. L. Jayne says:

    Wow it really resonated with me when you said maybe I should treat writing like I treat sports. All my life I’ve known that push. When I didn’t feel like going to practice that day but did anyways and ended up enjoying myself. Maybe it’s because I actually had to? With writing I don’t actually have to, my team isn’t depending on me, and the creative process is something fragile that I don’t want to rush or break. For me, the walls I hit with writing is lacking having something of sustenance to say. Every night I open up my working 6-10 pg word doc of blog ideas/lines of poetry, and only few do I feel I’ve written something people will find worthy to use their time reading. This definitely helps me to publish my best pieces, but maybe the ones that aren’t “the best” are worth it too…. I always find we have a lot in common when I read your stuff! Have a great Wednesday ❤️

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    1. Hamish says:

      We are fortunate here in New Zealand to be able to go out to social gatherings again. I went to see one of my good friends play saxophone at a gig called the Brazilian Big Band Experience. That was brilliant. And the other parts of my Wednesday were ok too, thank you. I hope you have a wonderful Wednesday too.

      Reading your comment made me think about what I’ve heard many writers say over and over again. They each say it in a slightly different way but the gist is something like this: “You’ve got to write a million words to get to the good ones.”

      I know looking at all writing as practice is helpful, but like you I really only want to spend time on “the best” ones I think people will want to read. But, how do we know an ok idea won’t turn into something great? If we never give it a chance, how will we ever find out?

      I pray you’ll find the courage to dive into some of the “ok” and even “terrible” ideas to unearth some hidden gems. ♥

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