The world can throw many things in front of us that are what we “should” be aiming to be, and do, and achieve. What this doesn’t help us do is know who we are. “Who am I?” It can be a most difficult question to answer, especially if we keep filling our schedules with more and more things, without taking the time to breathe and figure out what truly lifts our soul and gets us out of bed in the morning.
It has taken me the better part of the thirty-three years of my life to figure out that rest is important. I haven’t yet mastered the art of choosing to rest, actually doing it, and then NOT berating myself for spending time doing what the world would say is “nothing.” Rest is not nothing. Closing your eyes and feeling the breeze on your skin (or heavy wind if you live in a place like Wellington like I do) can be a reminder of the beauty of the world. Taking the time to open your ears and listen to where God is leading can help still the noise in your soul. Watching a few episodes of a funny television show can allay the worries you might have about a working week, even if the show is playing in the background while you zone out.
Who am I? It’s a question I often ask myself, but seldom in moments of calm where my mind can think about an answer coherently. I was reminded of this on Monday, the first day in over a week I felt my mind was clear of fog. Coincidentally I also had my first session with a personal trainer in the morning. The initial goal was to find a permanent solution to my right hamstring and glute not engaging when they should. After just one session I’ve realised it is going to help me improve a lot more than that. Starting a morning with exercise is often talked about as a great way to start a day, by professionals in the field and people who just do it in their everyday life. The benefits span the different areas of our wellbeing; mental health, physical fitness, social engagement, and spiritual wellbeing. As much as we let them anyway.
So, a few answers to this question that has been slowly turning over in my mind: who am I?
I am Hamish. Writer of stories, maker of music, player of ultimate. I enjoy helping people, both to push themselves towards achieving lofty goals, and to better understand how to manage their own wellbeing. I hate seeing active injustice, and seek to encourage respect by all people towards all others. Might seem a little naive, but choosing kindness has yet to steer me wrong.
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What are some of the things that make you, you?
Maybe a more difficult question, but is there anything you are seeking to change? For me, I seek become better at choosing to rest, and allowing myself to gain the benefits from it.
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No one is a better you than you. This is an awesome truth. Hold onto that. Own it.