Have you ever thought something was bound to work out but it never seems to? Something on the cusp of happening, the pieces about to fall into place, but they haven’t yet? In my life, opportunities have come along to do many different things, some for my career and others in more creative circles. At the time, I couldn’t know whether taking each opportunity was the right or wrong decision, but I’ve definitely felt the disappointment of putting myself out there and it not working out.
One particular opportunity came along when I was at intermediate, at eleven years old. I had played cricket since I was five, and over time built confidence in my batting game. I could occupy the crease for a long time, making sure I did not give my wicket away cheaply. This led to a bit of acknowledgement and invitation to play for an age group representative team, travelling a few times out of town to play some games, winning some and losing some. After a bit of time playing for this team, an experienced coach within the same club, one with a focus on helping individual players improve specific skills, offered me an opportunity to practice batting with a bowling machine.
I very nearly almost took the opportunity. There were several reasons I didn’t, and I have often wondered what would have happened if I’d set mind to working on my cricketing skills, and given more time to it. One thing I learned from the experience was to think about each opportunity, and if time is available collect all the information before making a decision. Might seem like common sense, but this almost gut reaction to stay where I was, learning from coaches who had probably already taught me all they could, definitely cemented this lesson in my mind.
Later on in my sporting life I took up ultimate (frisbee), working my way to representing New Zealand at multiple world tournaments. Each was a brilliant experience, guided by the games I had played at our national tournaments. I prefer playing in the mixed division, and have had a goal of winning the New Zealand Mixed Ultimate Championships since I began playing in 2005.
The number of times I have achieved this goal is zero.
I have played with a team that finished second and a team that finished third. I have played on a team with a very good roster which lost 15-14 in our quarter final. So close, several times, but never topping the podium. As time goes on I’m getting older, and staying in good enough shape and form to stay on pace with the up and coming younger generation of players is becoming more time consuming. I still believe I can do it, and think maybe it should have already come to fruition, but there’s still a voice in the back of my mind which says I can be part of a team that wins. Only time will tell.
In my writing efforts I am yet to publish a novel. Some stories I have made it partway through writing and stopped. Now, I have a finished manuscript, with one comprehensive edit completed, and I’ve sent it to with some beta readers. Publishing a novel is an aspirational, and very possible, goal, but requires sticking with it through the hard times.
Keep putting in the right kinds of effort, heeding when God nudges me back on track, and I’ll get there.
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What are you working on at the moment?
How are you keeping yourself motivated in the face of adversity?
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Never give up. Sometimes we can’t see the finish line but it’s just around the corner.
Keep on keeping on being awesome.