Nothing to say

I just sat down at my keyboard and my brain is empty of creativity or any semblance of useful writing thought. It’s blog post day, yet I can think of nothing of substance to put on this beautiful, blank slate. Maybe sometimes that’s the point? Am I pushing too hard to be productive and to always be doing something? Having goals to aim for is fine, but thinking I always need to have the right thing to say, or even a response at all, can lead to feelings of inadequacy.

The past two days at work I have felt flat and unproductive. If you asked me what tasks I had accomplished while I was there I would struggle to remember any of them. I’m sure I did do work, at least some of the time, but my mind was fighting to tell me I wasn’t being helpful and that I couldn’t help myself to get into that groove. I have this feeling a lot, but usually I can brush it off and see the hard work I’m putting in, even if it’s not one hundred percent of what I could do on my best day. One of my colleagues asked if there was anything they could do to help me find that groove. I tried to think if there was anything that would help, and couldn’t come up with an answer. My usually positive expression was replaced by an unchanging blank stare for most of the day.

On my way home, I reminded myself there was a blog post I would like to write and publish today. Still no concrete idea would form.

Emptiness was all that would materialise.

That in itself is evidence I am not looking after myself as well as I could be. A symptom of this is when I become unable to think of a specific word I know exists. I can explain the intangible concept and work my way around the fringes of the letters I think the word contains, but I can’t pluck the word itself from the depths of my brain. In truth, I struggled to think of the word ‘intangible’ for the previous sentence. When I am well rested, well fed, and at peace in my mind and soul, these words seem to roll straight from my fingers onto the page.

Another symptom of pushing myself too hard is losing the joy in writing unless I really push myself to pick up pen and paper or keyboard. Writing is something that gives me immense joy and refills my energy reserves. But if I spend too much time at my paid work, or try to fit too many things into my schedule, God nudges me by removing enthusiasm for writing. Money is a requirement so missing my weekday job hours is not possible. I’ve committed to playing with ultimate teams for the current leagues so I will go if I am fit and able i.e. in good health and uninjured. Meeting at church and spending time with God are two ways I remind myself of the necessity of rest, so cutting them out would be counterproductive.

At the moment, writing and playing music are two things that aren’t absolute necessity. I love them to the moon and back, but as of now they still live in the ‘hobby’ basket. Hence they are some of the first things to fall by the wayside. Along with eating and meeting up with friends.

I’m better than I used to be at recognising when this happens, but there’s still much room for improvement.

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What is first to go when you find yourself in need of rest?

How long does it take you to recover verve and enthusiasm when you’ve pushed too far?

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If you find yourself in need of rest, listen to the signals your mind, body, and soul are giving you. The benefits will be amazing for overall life enjoyment, trust me.


Cover photo by sergio souza from Pexels.


7 thoughts on “Nothing to say

    1. Hamish says:

      Is a tough thing. For me, it has been about reorientating my expectations of when I am able to finish things, because of the amount of time I actually have versus the time my imagination believes I *should* be able to spend in writing.

      You’re doing your best. Each step you take us one step closer. They don’t have to be big steps, and can be days apart if they need to be, but every time you can, take one small step – or bigger if you feel able! The finish line will keep getting closer.

      Peace to you as you continue to work hard, my friend. ♥

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  1. inspirechief says:

    Hamish, you are so creative that you wrote a great piece about not having anything to write about. It is good that you recognize the symptoms of overdoing. Take a break. There’s nothing wrong with it. Take care.

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    1. Hamish says:

      I guess I did. I fought my way back to creativity through the frustration of thinking I didn’t have much to say. Thank you for reading and offering the wisdom of rest. Peace to you, my friend.

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  2. Gary Fultz says:

    The song writing side of my music goes first. I write on the side only when I have something to say before I sit down. Everyone is so different in their goals and how to approach them. Pictures in nature trigger my creative side as well as reading other bloggers. I’m just back from an eventful wilderness trip. Those things tune my perspectives often to a different mood or key.

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    1. Hamish says:

      It really is interesting to hear how different people engage in their creative process. Nature has so many beautiful and dangerous (sometimes beautifully dangerous) things that can spark ideas within us that we must run with. I even manage to find new story ideas at my job in the finance department of where I work!

      More often than not for me, the music comes first too. The lyrics sort of blossom from the sound and mood that are created with the music.

      Thank you for offering your beautiful musings and things for me to ponder. Stay safe out there and be well, my friend.


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