Found what you need? Stop looking

I’ve talked a lot about the fact I love to write on this blog. When I make time every day to write, and edit some of my existing work, I feel more like myself. Yet, it seems like I throw out my sensors to search for something else all too often. Exactly what I think I’m trying to to find I don’t know. I enjoy playing the guitar and writing music, I make sure I exercise enough to keep fit, I spend time with friends and family nurturing those good relationships, and I engage in regular prayer and conversation with God.

Maybe it’s time I figure out exactly what it is I think I need to find, or at least why I’m seeking to find it.

This world we live in is not an easy one to navigate. No one ever promised it would be. It can seem an impossible task to find the things that give us life and energy, among the plethora of ways we can choose to spend our time. Whatever we choose, there is merit in doing it with all our heart and to the best of our ability. For me, this means working hard in the job I find myself blessed with at the Stroke Foundation. At present this position allows me to be involved in offering support to those who’ve experienced a stroke and their families. I am a behind the scenes part of this, but an integral one. I feel comfortable and valued in this position, with all of its successes and challenges, and have no desire right now to seek out different paid work. Perhaps there’s something in that feeling for the stories and music I find myself working on, too? New ideas are great, but are not always where time is best spent.

Nearly every single day I feel a deep desire to write something. Most often this is weaving words into a story. When I am struggling with negative emotions the words often come to me in the form of poetry and music. I don’t always act upon this feeling, and actually write the words down. Instead I often slip into the act of seeking something else. Another game of football or ice hockey to watch, another calming YouTube video, or other ways to avoid doing the things I really want to do – writing and helpful physical activity included.

I am getting better at is to just keep starting. Abandoning my overthinking mindset and just doing the thing. I have found wonderfully rewarding ways to spend my time with where I am in my life at present, so it is up to me to spend the majority of my time doing them. I don’t need to find those other things to spend my time on, I need to spend my time writing.

The more I write, the closer I am to publishing a book. The more I write, the closer I get to releasing music. The more I write, the better I am at processing difficult emotions. What do I stand to lose?

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Are there times you get in your own way? How can you help yourself release self-imposed pressure and do the things you love?

Direct your perspective in productive directions when you can, and it will become easier each time you’re faced with a new obstacle.

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Cover photo by Andrea Piacquadio from Pexels.


8 thoughts on “Found what you need? Stop looking

  1. Sundaram Chauhan says:

    I sometimes put too much pressure on myself to finish my reading and writing targets, and all of a sudden feel bursting at the seams. It’s then that I turn to youtube, or social media, and there too I can’t seem to stick to only entertaining videos, my conscience always a step behind. I see writing videos, or best reads, or writer’s interviews.
    But that’s the way, right? At the end of the day it feels good to have remained focused. Though on Sundays, I deliberately give myself some space, and listen to music, and allow myself some time away from words. That refreshes me.
    Have a great Sunday, Hamish. :))

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    1. Hamish says:

      Thank you for sharing. 😊 It is so very important to take the time to rest. To intentionally choose to do those things which instead of taking energy recharges it.

      Breaking poorly formed habits is tough, but we can refocus and make that our default mindset with intentional effort.

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  2. Navin says:

    It’s a lovely sharing, Hamish….I try to write & read on WP & IG coz I love to remain connected….not just with the outside world….but the inside world of mine….it brings peace in me….it would be great if you share your music…

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    1. Hamish says:

      Thank you Navin. It is such a beautiful thing to connect with oneself as well as the wonderful people around us. 😊

      I do have plans to share my music here soon! Thank you for your encouragement. ♥

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    1. Hamish says:

      Thank you, Cheryl. ♥ Definitely lots of gratitude for where I am. Keeping a Sabbath is something I’m getting closer to. Not quite there yet, but getting closer! I hope you are finding balance too.


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