A few days ago the film ‘The Intern’ played on television. My sister and I watched it, both having seen it previously, and we remarked how relatable the characters were. They are not who most of us would consider every day people, but neither are they people with ridiculously over the top abilities. Robert De Niro plays a retired man, widowed within the past few years, who subsequently finds himself with a lot of time on his hands. One way he keeps himself busy is travelling, to see the world, but every time he returns home to his empty house, he feels a little bit at a loose end.

We do not have the luxury of travelling right now, but I still found myself strongly relating to the feeling of being lost. Some days I feel a sense of purpose. The rest I feel like I’m floundering to try and figure out how to achieve anything at all.

If you’ve been keeping up with my blog you’ll know I’m in the process of finishing writing my first book. It’s a lot of fun! I love learning new words and honing my craft. I feel like I get to know my characters the more I write about them. I’m really excited to share this with people! The problem: I’ve not done this before so I am struggling to push past the resistance which tells me there’s no point trying. Maybe I’m not very good at writing? Why would anyone would want to read a story I’ve written?

I’m getting better at putting one foot in front of the other, even if I’m walking around in a circle with no idea of where my next destination will be.

For a significant portion of my adult life I’ve been fond of the idea of having a place to live which is most definitely home. I hope the next place will be one I live for a significant length of time, make many happy memories with my wife (I am not currently married), and where my children grow into wonderful humans (I don’t have children either). I don’t currently have the plan for putting myself in places where this is likely to happen. I feel lost at sea with no land in swimming distance. It seems like there’s no way for me to bridge this gap between where I am and these things becoming reality.

Every day I pray for the peace of mind to lay these worries down. I can only control what I can control. Acknowledging this has been a revelation. It has always been true, but I haven’t always been good at believing it, because having faith things will work out when I’m struggling is tough. But if I keep working hard, knowing the destination I am working towards, the way will be made clear.

Is there anything in your life which you are yearning for? How can you put yourself in a position to work towards it?

Keep on keeping on being awesome. Peace.

Cover photo by Andrew Neel from Pexels.


11 thoughts on “Lost

  1. Milena Alien says:

    If your story is good. people out there will read it no matter what. I guess each and every one of us is desperately trying to get ahead in life, this is why we wake up every morning and start it all over again. You know what I mean? We are all in the same boat… I wish you the best of luck!

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    1. Hamish says:

      You’re absolutely right. If we put in the work, by learning every day we are able to get better at what we want to get better at, we can make the best use of our creativity.

      Thank you for taking the time to read and leave words of wisdom. Peace to you. 😊

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  2. thewheelchairteen says:

    Putting one foot in front of the other is really all that we can do. I’m also an aspiring writer, and I think that almost every artist occassionaly doubts their talents or their work. But the important thing is to not give up and to have faith in your own abilities. Because the answer to: ‘Why would anyone want to read a story I’ve written?’ is – You’ll never know until you try. I reccomend sharing your writing with those close to you when you start to doubt yourself. When I start to doubt my writing, encouragements and positive feedback from the people that I know can really help. I’m glad that you had this revelation – I for one can’t wait to read your story 🙂

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    1. Hamish says:

      Very sound wisdom. Taking that first courageous step of sharing, and reminding ourselves the first draft of anything is never perfect. Being able to receive constructive feedback and action it is important, so we can improve our future creations.

      Thank you for taking the time to read and craft your response.

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  3. PoojaG says:

    I think all writers feel the way you do and have that voice telling them that they won’t succeed or that people won’t like their writing. The truth is that there are literally so many people out there in the world that there will always be someone who wants to read what you have written. Don’t let that annoying little voice win and all the best with the book!

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    1. Hamish says:

      Thank you for helping me, and so many others, push back against that little voice. I have in fact today spent much of it working through this last chapter. A long way to go, but today I made progress.

      I hope your art continues to be life-giving and rewarding for you too. 🌟

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  4. Troy Headrick says:

    I think we sometimes fixate on product. If you love the process, then the “finishing” will fix itself because, one day, you’ll find that you’ve written your final sentence. If you love the process–and you’ve said that you do–then finishing will happen as result of that. Your momentum will carry you across the finish line. We sometimes forget to take joy in the process of creation. So many of us have been taught that joy comes in finishing that we forget to enjoy the doing.

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    1. Hamish says:

      Thank you for the reminder. It is something I know implicitly but often forget to actively focus on. I love all aspects of the creative process, especially when I fall into it. When I actively choose to finish writing a song, or organise a particular scene it may feel like a struggle because I’m not “in the zone”, but moments later I am entangled in the world in the best way.

      Thank you for the encouragement, Troy. I pray your week wends it’s way on a good trajectory.


  5. gulfcoastpoet@gmail.com says:

    Hamish, I wish you success in all your endeavors. The hard part comes after the book is finished. Marketing. It requires a lot of effort and can cost a great deal of money. Don’t get caught in the trap of borrowing a lot of money to market your book like I did. For now, focus on the joy of writing. Make your book as excellent as you can. This is a perfect time for developing excellence! 🙂

    As for finding a partner and starting a family, there are some things you can do right now. I met my soul mate online, and we are in our very happy seventh year together! Online dating requires a lot of time, thought, and effort, and there are some scammers out there, but it is something you could do right now! Might be a bit of a distraction with work and book-writing commitments, but something to consider! ❤ All the best! Cheryl

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    1. Hamish says:

      Thank you for your very thoughtful response. I feel so blessed to have people like you offering advice from their experience of writing and publishing. 😊 I think for this, my first book, I will send out queries to publishers. My aim is to give people something enjoyable to read. From the one day publishing course I attended making use of publishers knowledge and marketing will greatly assist me, if anyone wants to publish my book!

      Your second suggestion is also a sound I’ve. I just have this mental block with online dating. I have had no bad experiences, and know it is a good way to meet people with similar interests so it might be about time I pushed my pride aside and just did it.

      Thank you again. I pray you go well into your week Cheryl. ♥


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