Thank you ellieejay for the inspiration to be courageous and write this post.

I am one those people that looks for anything else to do except for what is currently in front of me. I’m not necessarily looking to avoid responsibility, I’m just looking for something else.

Towards the end of 2019 I started writing a to-do list every night before I want to bed. If you’ve been keeping up with my blog posts recently you’ll know that I didn’t used to like to-do lists very much. I used to view them as a “What I didn’t get done today” report. Shifting my perspective by spending time thinking about what I want to do each each week, month, and even year, I have been able to divide these lists into groups of tasks. Most of these tasks fit into the categories of writing, music, exercise, social outings, and life admin. Each night when I write my to-do list I have in mind what I want to get accomplished in each category. Since I’ve starting doing this I have been making real progress towards finishing large projects. I’m almost finished the first draft of my first book (an excerpt is on its way I promise, I’m just trying to break away from my perfectionist mindset). I’m two thirds of the way through recording my first EP. Making it available so people can listen to it is a whole other project, but it’s in the pipeline. I’m sleeping regular hours and now working on extending the length of time I sleep, to improve retention of knowledge, recall, and physical wellbeing. It’s all progress.

Yet, I still find ways to divert my attention, to prevent myself fully committing to cultivating the best habits I can. One place I fall down most is not going to sleep early enough. My body can survive on six hours sleep, but I am more productive with more sleep. I get distracted less and can stay on track to get what I need to done. Another place I fall down is getting home from work and lying down on my bed before getting out of my work clothes, before eating food, and before having a drink of water. This I am doing less but it still happens on occasion. Actively choosing to rest is important, but when I have the energy and keenness I can get stuck in.

The biggest piece of advice I can give from my own experience is to move from one productive activity to another when its healthy to do so. The days I feel I accomplish most are the ones I come straight home from work, sit down at my computer and get stuck straight into writing. Or I pick up my guitar and practice. Or I read more wonderful blog posts that you amazing people write, which are so varied and so wonderful and real.

Please allow me to diverge a moment and say thank you so much for your thoughtfulness, your caring attitudes, and your honesty in sharing who you are.

We are strong. We are capable. We can dig deep and find the fire within our soul. It’s not about how many times we fall, it’s about how many times we get back up. Help each other so we can all keep getting back up.

Peace to you, dear friends.

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21 thoughts on “Self-sabotage

  1. Sundaram Chauhan says:

    “What I didn’t get done today report”…this is so very relatable, Hamish. I have it every day too, but I have learnt how much I can accomplish in a day, so I keep it short now. And this is such an honest account. All the best for your book, your music buddy…may you achieve all you’re working towards. πŸ™ŒπŸ‘πŸ™Œ

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  2. PoojaG says:

    Unfortunately I am also one of those people who will do anything and everything except what they are supposed to do but I have tried really hard to change that habit for roughly over an year now and I am getting a lot better. Keeping a planner and scheduling everything helped me a lot.

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    1. Hamish says:

      Ley us both keep working at it, learn from ourselves and others, and pass on the learnings! I’ve only recently started keeping s planner and it has helped me stay honest with myself. πŸ™‚

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  3. YBP says:

    We are strong. We are capable. We can dig deep and find the fire within our soul. It’s not about how many times we fall, it’s about how many times we get back up. Help each other so we can all keep getting back up.


    Wow I love your soul! So positively inspirational! Keep spreading the LOVE!!!!! – Yeka β€οΈπŸ’œπŸ’™πŸ’šπŸ’›β€οΈ

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    1. Hamish says:

      Thank you so much for your encouragement. It has been over a decade in the making getting to this point. Some days I still struggle to believe in my ability to do these things, but each day is a chance to prove that niggly little negative voice in my head wrong. πŸ™‚

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  4. says:

    Hamish, I am a list person and find it helps to keep me on track. My son uses a planner. I can relate to not getting enough sleep, especially as I grow older. I have no answers on that one!

    I have read several of your posts and found them interesting and relatable. All the best! Cheryl

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    1. Hamish says:

      Thank you so very much for reading. I am glad you’ve found something in them for you. 😊

      My brother encouraged me to make to-do lists and I shall thank him again for doing so next time we talk. Family can provide some of the most honest tips and advice can’t they?

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    1. Hamish says:

      Thank you very much for stopping by to read and comment. It gives me warm fuzzy feelings to hear such nice things, and I’m glad people find some worth in what I write. 😊 I very much appreciated your writing about Malala and look forward to reading more.

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