Pride

I am not a well-known author, but I have received donations for writing I have created, by a few people. Neither am I a well-known musician. I have received donations for an EP I’m working hard to record and produce. It is ok that I am not well-known for either. I am working hard to continue writing, to continue making music, to continue the love I have of creating new ideas and bringing them into the world. What I don’t know how to do yet is effectively share my creations with an audience and ask for payment, if a reader or listener wishes to provide it, to support me as I continue to create.

This is where resistance hits and hits hard.

The specific concept of resistance I am talking about is from Steven Pressfield’s book The War of Art. It is a psychological force working to keep us where we are, stifling creativity and action. It must be overcome for us to be able to engage our creativity and accomplish what we want to. Better Ideas, a YouTube channel I follow, explains Steven Pressfield’s concept of resistance in more detail in their video “Why you procrastinate so often”. They also address the question I know I have often asked myself: why are the things I most want to do, often the most difficult to start?

In some of their other videos they offer ways to reduce idle time and kick our A into G when we need to. It is important to understand time spent idle is very different from time spent resting. Idleness is often a choice made when we have energy for other things, where rest is a necessary part of living a healthy life.

Pushing past the way we have done something for a long time is tough. Even if we know it probably isn’t the best way to do it, habit is difficult to break. Pushing through this psychological resistance requires active mental effort – sometimes even physical effort. It means trusting it is ok to let others in, to accept offers of outside support, to trust they want to help us be a better version of ourselves. Do we know best about a particular thing? Why do we think we know best? Will a particular way always be the best way?

Accepting help from those around me has been tough this past month. But I am thankful for a roof over my head the kindness of the people providing it. I am thankful for the encouragement of my church community, my family, and friends to keep putting one foot in front of the other. It can become a numbers game; keep applying for jobs and one will land, keep applying for flats and I’ll find the right place to live. I continue working on putting my pride aside and accepting relevant help when it is offered.

Every day is an opportunity for us to take steps towards being the version of ourselves we can be. I believe it is worth trying, and I believe we will get closer. For me, I keep writing and playing music, creating things, because I want to provide people with sources of joy. One of those people is me and I find my in the art of creation.

What will your today hold? What joyous possibilities will your tomorrow bring?

Dream big, embrace peace, love always.

P.S. In the midst of helping avoid the spread of Covid-19 it’s not always about us, it’s often about helping others too.

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